Ok! It’s a Saturday and am home thinking of what to lay my hands on! I pick my laptop and start surfing :p Then I come across a picture that translates alotta meaning in my head. It depicts freedom, Absolute possession of One’s spirit. The T.v is still on with my ghost friends watching it (Lol) and am sipping On a glass of Orange Juice! My New found Love J

The picture is still in my head and I relate it to Events that have Occured in my life lately. Theres Just One word Lurking about my head right Now. It’s as simple as its pronounced but very rare to give out. It heals, brings back tranquillity and a perfect state of mind. It’s like putting an end to a Jail sentence! You must already know what that word is.....

   Before I get to that I wana Thank y’all for the beautiful remarks I got from the last post “The Escape”. Y’all are Just wonderful. Thanks for taking the time to read and passing on the link. *Thumbs up*: D

So Mind on matter, the Word is FORGIVENESS....

I love to give life to paintings, pictures and stuff in my head. Right now, I feel like this is Me enjoying some kinda Absolute “Freedom”. I thought to myself: Forgiveness is Freedom.

Most people find it hard to forgive depending on the gravity of the hurt. I wouldn’t say am an exception cos we’re all humans. It’s really hard but easy to forgive. Like the brightness of lightening after thunder comes peace after forgiveness!

              She scrolled down that Inbox filled with deceit

               Lies she believed, distrust she began to conceive

      He Listened to that voicemail, the voice was that of a male

          Talking about love and sex and all there was to say 

    She had alotta friends but no One cared to ask why she sulked

             He washed that dish and scrubbed that floor

                      For a cold night of no comfort

                         Her boss gave her a Quit

                      That was an outright Injustice

                  Still the globe Never stops spinning

                     The sun Never stops shinning

                         We never stop sinning

                     And God Never stops Forgiving...                                                         
         

                    

                  

The Green Glass Bottle.....

She sat alone in the cold walls of the kitchen

Overtaken by her emotions her heart was bleeding

Her tears dried up, her eyes releasing some more

Life was unfair, I promise to be good she swore

If you forgive me this once and take me back home

She saw the heavens and God sitting on his throne

Then she saw the hellion, dressed in fineness on a radar

He showed her the way, the path to end the bullshit

It was Unique, simple and it had a brave credit

To get up that chair and take that bold step

I’ll make it simpler, he promised with a smirk

I’ll show you the way right inside the white shelf

It was easy to spot; it stood with grace on the wall

She stood up and now her two feet were on the floor

The voice led on but now there were two

One was louder, the other was milder

One was familiar, the Other was subtle

She wasn’t alone now, she had companions

Strange voices babbling, she was so delirious

Her feet moved faster and now she was in control

The handle was cold, colder than her thoughts were

She pulled the shelf Open and there it lay

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          

"THE GREEN GLASS BOTTLE"

The toxic Jar, filled with venom                     

It had green content and smelled of silicon

Maliciously bottled and kept out of reach

It saved plants but viciously ate up a human organ

That is the way, screamed Out the hellion

A glass cup appeared on the corner,

She grabbed it and slowly filled it with the green content

Supposed to signify life but it was covered in darkness

She reached back her seat hoping to bury her conscience

And take this drink that quietly waited in cold silence

It was a table of four, she was so sure

But three seats were definitely occupied

Her companions were back

One by her right, the other by her left

Similar to the last supper, she had a traitor and a friend

The hellion said: drink up and have some glory to your name

There’s a better home lying right inside your palm

The friend said in a quiet but disappointed tone

Foolish it be that I breathe you life that’s not your own

With all my Love and purpose for you

And all the mercy I’ve bestowed on you

You return all that to me and head for doom

The hellion said drink, the friend said Dont!

Drink! Dont!! Drink! Dont!!! Drink! Dont!!!!

She got up in a rage, flung the door wide Open she screamed Damn You!!

Virtuously throwing the  glass cup away

It swung miserably in the air with a victorious stare in her eyes

**Clashh** came the sound of it as its broken pieces crashed on the wall

The hellion disappeared on his defeat, it was a fall

The Angels rejoiced! They had saved another soul

And God smiled on his throne, Wipe your tears my beloved!

I’ll never forsake you. You definitely have my reward....

“I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.” – John 14:18

RANDOM THOUGHTS......

She was a young girl with her heart in her toys

A train tunnel, a teddy and such was her Joy

There was no need to worry, mama told all the story

Of how she prayed to God to save the life of her teddy

And how she treasured it and knew when it was hungry

As funny as it seemed there was an Irony                              

Little as she was she had so much wisdom

Little was her heart but it had so much freedom

She knew that someday there was gonna be a way   

Yeah there was gonna be a way                                                      

She was a young girl with the heart of a lion

She had a big heart but she won’t let her feet be tramped on

She had her dreams in her head always ready to deliver

And when you deny her of her right, she would never surrender

She spilled her milk, tore her shirt and broke a bone

Left home with two pair of stockings, whistled back with one

Mama smiled and told on the story

She got herself into so much trouble but she was never sorry

Because she knew there was gonna be a way

Yeah there was gonna be a way    

She was a young girl with a timid heart

She glowed within the walls of her heart like a tinsel

She was her own bestfriend, what she felt only her could tell

Hardly outspoken but fiercly driven with passion

She smiled and screamed aloud when given some attention

too proud to surrender, that was her truest confession

She had so Much flaws but she knew she was on a Mission

And when she kneels to pray she forgets all the words to say

All she remembers is Thank You lord for the day

Because she knew there was gonna be a way

Yeah there was gonna be a way.  

THE ESCAPE

Its exactly 04:26 am in the morning and am in bed, eyes closed in an entirely different planet. Its windy outside but pretty warm under my fluffy blanket. My legs stretched a little harder and my toenails cracked. Slowly my left eye twitched embracing my lower eyelid. Same as my right eye!

I was checking out the time, anticipating his arrival. He promised he wouldn’t be late but i had waited too long to wear a smile. I walked to and fro the living room constantly looking through my window. There was no sign, not even a glimpse. I saw many faces. Young and old, fair and dark but none looked him. I went back to the spot i was sitting all evening and sank in harder on the couch! I was pissed. Why would he keep me waiting this long when he knew we had a date? Is he on some kinda game again? Or is he trying to get me for standing him up the other day? I reached out for the hand rest of the couch and placed my head on it. Still not comfortable, I placed my feet fully on it and dozed off a little. Nah I dint doze off, I literally slept!

The door cracked open. He was back! I knew it but i dint wana make a move yet. I felt his shadow above me and as usual, he kissed me. He knows my weakness and he knows just how to use it. I opened my eyes, indifferent but biting his lips. I pulled out slowly and sat upright. Why did you keep me waiting this long baby? I wasn’t gona forget to ask, that kiss wasn’t gona bribe me! Shhh came the answer....he kissed me again! But dear, u said you were gona....shhh came the answer again and this time his Index finger pressed hard on his lips, then he placed it against mine! Gosh! He knew how to make me surrender! He smiled and I shook my head and released a smile, working my fingers down my hair. He shoved his keys on the table and pulled off his shoes. I unfastened his tie and gazed at his face giving him a hard nod on his forehead! I loved to do that to him and he would grab my waist and give me a tight cuddle. He hugged me tight till I playfully wriggled myself outta his arms reminding him of Our plan! The BEACH! 

 

  Yeah, the reason why i’d been waiting all evening for him to get back. We spent the whole night talking about how we would steal the nextday alone to ourselves at the beach! Away from the world! I was pretty much excited at the idea and so was he. The week had been so busy and we needed that alone time. I swiftly made my way to the kitchen to fix him something to eat while he carelessly flung his socks on the corner of the floor going about his usual house activity, Nintendo! 

His neighbour checked in earlier to see if he was still coming over for some party. It popped in my head and I called on him to ask. Honey? Honey?  Honey! He was engrossed! I starred at him from the door and for 20 secs he dint know i was starring.  I walked down memory lane and remembered how lost he was in his game when we first met. I came with a friend, who knew a friend that knew him. It was his birthday and so unusually, he was rather on his Nintendo while we were all making his day. I remember I used to wonder how weird he could be. He was always absent minded but smart, a little weird but sweet, too playful but serious. He always had a good replacement for all his bad habits. I fell for him somewhere inbetween. While having these thoughts, finally he looks up at me and bashfully smiled. I served us some egg sandwiches. He loved that on most afternoons and since I was spending the week with him before the second semester of school resumes, I took my time to Observe his likes and dislikes. We hurriedly ate that and once we got done, we headed off !

The road was free, as it was a weekend. The beach was barely 30mins away. He loved to turn his music loud and speed on a max! I couldn't complain as I was loving every moment with him. We laughed and chewed on candy balls. I'd pour alot in my hand and let him have from my palm. We stole kisses while he drove and cussed cars that sped faster than us. We had an amazing ride and I was adding these memories to the multitude i already had in my head :)

Eventually we got there. The beach was so peaceful and serene. Just what we needed! The sun had already disappeared over the edge of the horizon leaving shades of gold in the sky. There was alot of people at the beach, happy kids and animals. palm trees sweetly curved out for a nice shade. It was an amazing atmosphere. We chilled on a quiet corner and and munched on sticks of candy floss and drinks. We made out severally laughed and talked  about our future together. We both layed down on the light brown sand in silence. My heart pounding in anxiety. He stretched out his hands and pulled me close to him...swinging my hair back and forth. I felt his heart beat against mine, they were playing the same rhythm, we both could understand. I was expecting a surprise but I wasn't sure what it was. There was a reason for the delay back at the house. A reason why he had no excuse for his lateness! I overheard him ask his friend sometime that week if "it was the right time" and lastly I saw that small red box wrapped with a silk ribbon in his pocket! How can he possibly be smarter than a lady?? we find things out!! I thought with a quirky smile, still lying on his hairy chest. Would you give me my ring already?! My witty voice from within screamed with Joy. Right now I was too sure what to expect. I was happy! 

Finally he sits up and I fill my hands with sand. Moulding it to distract myself. Was it time to turn over, i thought! yes? No? grrhh! He crawls over on me, kneeling above me with my legs in between his. "Will you....." (Yes! yess! yesss!...) I answered in my head before he finished. I had to act all surprised like Omg yesss I will baby! He placed the ring on my finger (and my toenails cracked again....legs stretching further) We were both happy and had a make out session that lasted for 15mins on a max. Then we got up and pursued ourselves round and round the beach like two playful kids. Of course we were!  We ran to the water and he dived in happily screaming out to everyone about how today's his happiest day! He called out on me to come join him, but I was scared of water! He loved it.

I came closer and he pulled me into the water, holding me tight while the waves of the beach celebrated with us by fiercly swinging itself at us back and forth, splashing hard on our skins! Friends around taking pictures and cheering at us. The whole attention seemed to be on us now and it was amazing. We were definately doing something right. I tought! The waves were coming harder this time but nobody noticed it. All too distracted with our view. Until he slipped. His hands were no longer wrapped round my waist. The sand below my feet swept off quickly by the rush of the water and before I knew it I was On the floor covered in water. I struggled to get a grip on the sand but it slipped off my fingers and I only kept digging my fingers deep! I coughed out hard but the water rushed at me again. Wheres everyone?? My subconscious thought! I struggled out further. I was on dry sand now. Weak! It was all dark. No one was around. Wheres he?? sadness rushed down my heart! Dont leave me. Please dont :( Come back! please baby come back! :( :( Echoes of my voice pounded in my head. My toenails cracked again! and I was struggling with my two feet on my bed. I opened my eyes wide. It was a DREAM.

I sat up and sobbed. It was a tragic event in my life. How could I easily erase that memory? Loosing a loved one to the sea... It keeps coming back, over and over again..both in dreams and in my thoughts. I wiped the tears and went back to sleep.....

(2b contd...)

**This Is just an imaginative story** I'm Not the character in the story and i haven't lost anyone (Thanks2God) to the sea but I just felt like putting myself in the story because am touched when I hear stories of people loosing their loved ones at the beach especially. The trauma they go through, sleepless nights, torture and sometimes taking their own lives cos they cant forgive themselves for watching it happen! My bestfriend told me of some one who lost his brother at the beach and that moment I was gona blog about it. If y'all know anyone who anyone in this situation. Help them out of it. It really countss...**

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He was well built, tall dark handsome
Lips luscious, eyelash fullsome
Nose lined out like a bridge,
shoulders broad outta his sleeves
He had a perculiar smell
One that I couldnt really tell
It was a mixture of sweet and sour
like an Incense in the air it soared
He had a big jacket, I observed further
His hood stood gracious, blingers dropped flawless
I bent my head low, I spotted his shoe lace
they swung merrily above the ground
knotted carefully, just why I took a bow
Yours sincerely, this is holiday
It was windy, my thoughts swayed
I lost the signal, what brought me here?
Warmness wrapped my jaw bare
paranoia round my eyes, my legs shuddered
Air closing up, my throat gulping hard
His fingers still crawling round my chin
Music long forgotten in my ears now spinning
I felt a million eyes slyly starring
I was shy, yeah I was hiding that smile
He wrapped his fingers further round my jaw
with his strong hands, he rose my face right up
I blankly starred in his eyes, It seemed like a deja vu
I was lost in his eyes from the start, lets cut the ado
but he had changed alot, my speculations paused
He bent his neck and whispered something
It had eight letters and two words
The only option he carelessly skipped out
Months of exit that should have been burned out
His face now against mine, he braced my lips
My eyes closed up, the world went dead silent
I blinked hard and there was my teacher
starring Mad at me! DANG!! 


What the hell has he been saying?? You can bet I had not the slightest idea..